I'm not a child!

Why do you talk to me
Like I'm still a child?
I'm not stupid
Not naive just a scared woman
You never saw me for who I was
Just what I was
I was terrified of you
You were abusive both verbally and physically
Very few people know what you were like
You'd be loving and caring around people
Once we were alone you'd be someone else
I'm not a child
I'm a woman
I'm not scared anymore
You got what you deserved.

Crumbled

A world where daddy's little girl
is just a dream.
The perfect parents don't exist
Depression haunts a young child,
waiting in the dark for the world around her
to build back up again.

Walls still crumbling in
Still drowning in a nightmare
Still lost in a fairy tale.
The Prince has come to rescue her.

The Castle walls are left broken and damaged
Her tears have caused water damage everywhere
She is surrounded by dark grey clouds
Beginning to let the sun shine through.

Daddy

Daddy you brought me into this world You loved me long ago But something happened daddy You no longer love me so. Daddy when I was young You taught me about life But daddy when I got older You taught me nothing more. Daddy the boys played hockey Which took up most of your time So daddy I played too So we could play together. Daddy something happened Something turned you bad You hurt mommy, daddy You hurt her really bad. Daddy you came after me too Not with a knife or gun But daddy you hurt me with your words You hurt me more than mom. Daddy I wish I could forgive you But it's not so easy now Because daddy I saw what you did I saw you put that up your nose. Daddy your behavior was explained Instantly I knew But daddy when I spoke up All you did was lie to everyone. Daddy I chose the path I wanted For now anyway But daddy maybe someday We could talk again. Daddy I am sorry It hurts me too you know But daddy nows the time For me to just let go.

Why Do I Do it? Why Not

I cut to numb my pain I cut to relieve my pain I cut to feel pain I cut to watch the blood I cut because I'm anxious But now I can't cut I can't cut because of him I can't cut because it's wrong I can't cut because I'll get addicted again I can't cut and it causes me anxiety I can't cut but I want to so bad.

Shattered Girl

Shattered broken hearted girl
A young age for such horrible things
Broken home leaves her wanting more
A life that was so lonely.

She cried tears of blood
Wanted to get out
Any way would’ve been great
But the way she did was fine

Suicidal thoughts crept in her mind
She couldn’t turn them away
So she raised the blade and washed away
The tears with so much rain.

Family and friends now feel her pain
Cuz no one understood
So they took their suicidal thoughts
And turned them into plans.

One by one they dropped like flies
It did more harm than good
It started with a shattered girl
Who lost her will to live.

Welcome!

Welcome all to my poetry blog. I've had hurt in my life for several years, and Poetry has always been an easy outlet for me to get my frustration, anger, and other things that are hard for me to say out. I hope you all enjoy my poetry and that it helps you in times of need. Please know your friends are a great outlet for support no matter what you are going through. You're never alone!